About Origins and Nostalgia

Something that always amuses people that I meet is my accent, no matter if it’s Spanish or English; I’m from nearly nowhere when it comes to my accent. Today I’m going a little personal sharing with you a little bit about my origins and nostalgia. I’ll explain starting from the beginning:

About Origins and Nostalgia

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I was born in Sao Paulo, Brazil. I lived there intermittently until the age 6. At that age we moved to Venezuela, specifically San Cristobal, Tachira state, where I lived for four years. We moved again to Lagunillas (eastern shore of Maracaibo Lake, Zulia State) where I lived until the age of 16 when we finally moved to Maracaibo (another city in Venezuela). We settled there more permanently. My parents left the country eight years later and I stayed because I wanted to work and practice my profession in which I already had a job in a small Web Design Company.

Above One of my very best friends in Maracaibo, the kind of friend I can also call my sister.

The next year I got a better job in Caracas (Venezuela’s Capital) and moved there. I was lucky enough to meet my husband at my new job and four years later we decided to move to London. But, when our daughter came into the equation while we were studying English with no job and no income yet, we decided to move to Spain where we lived for almost 2 years.

Spain’s economic situation made it too hard for us to keep going. We love it there and it was a great place to raise our baby, but at some point we had to choose between paying rent or buying food. So we made the hardest decision to split temporarily and Iwent to my parents house in Oman (Middle East). He stayed there trying to recover economically and eventually to bring us back to Spain.

Things didn’t go our way and what we thought it would be no more than 3 to 6 months turned into 2 years. He couldn’t find a job even having already a legal residence. He went back to Venezuela a few months later. He found a job there and we were searching for possible ways to reunite somewhere away of Venezuela.

My dad (who is actually my step-dad but I consider him my daddy with all my heart) offered us to go with them to Colombia (South America) when his Contact at the time in the Middle East ended. We considered it, I could find a job and bring hubby home. So we did. Since August 2014 I’ve been here. I got lucky and I could get a temporary visa as a Mercosur Country member but that type of visa didn’t last much active for Venezuelans because of border conflicts of reciprocation with Venezuela. That caused my hubby not getting that same visa.

I decided to put all my heart into my design business to not need a job out of home and being able to stay with my girl. The situation between Colombia and Venezuela left us apart again for a few more months.

After many months apart we decided that it was better to try something else out, other than being apart and our girl being so unhappy without her daddy. He came and we are now looking for ways for him to get a visa. It seems like my business is the best way to go. I’m legally creating a local business here so I can make more money and I gave him a beneficiary visa to stay and live here in peace. This is an on-going project that will hopefully go smoothly and we can finally settle and have a home of our own. I so dream about that.

For now I’m so thankful that I could count on our families. And, despite how hard it is to live in a parents house, we have a roof above our heads, so much love and help.

Some other factors to be added to all this: My mother is Gocha (from San Cristobal, Tachira, Venezuela, that’s how we call people from there) and her mother’s family is Brazilian, my grandpa is from Los Llanos, my Dad (husband of my mother who raised me as his own) is Colombian and also his whole family. My biological father and his ancestry are from Spain. Can you imagine the mixture?

The amazing thing is that being from everywhere and nowhere at the same time, I’m still so attached to those places I feel are my land. Even though I have not lived much in Brazil, it’s like it’s in my blood. Venezuela has been my home most of my life and gave me the best it could until it wasn’t enough anymore.

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Brazil as I just said, it’s in my blood, in my DNA. I miss Brazilian dishes so badly. I can not hear its music because I can barely contain myself to not start dancing {JA !}. I have family that I know well, some just not so much but for some reason I love sincerely. It is something that is there, immutable. I love everything about that country despite not having the intention to live there and I’m still trying to figure out why.

Above Friends and family that I dear and love so much from Venezuela.

In Venezuela {phew!}, what not to miss from Venezuela? I miss my people, all those friends that became my family when mine left the country. Our gathering together with Sangria Caroreña at home haha! The last-minute, improvised and unforgettable road trips… I miss my work with the good, the bad, tremendous fun and rioting that we made.

I miss the food … hmmmm! The food … At Christmas it is torture without my hallaca, my chicken salad, ham bread and New Year’s pork, weird hot dogs known as “asquerositos” (gross LOL), the Nestico’s arepas in Maracaibo, a thick chicha (delicious beverages made with rice), the cachapas (kind of a thick tortilla made with corn), cepillado/brushed (slush) sitting in the car, empanadas and mandoquitas of Monzerratte, Let’s not talk about a patacón (a dish made with platain) among other things. Weird independence I used to have back then in many ways.

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While I do not regret the decisions I’ve made in my life including leaving my country, it doesn’t mean I stopped feeling Venezuelan or that I stopped missing everything that makes me a Venezuelan. I just couldn’t handle the politic, social and economic situation.

Now I live in Colombia, has been a big change since the customs and way of speaking are very different. Even I find it hard not to say Venezuelan colloquial words, I have still so much to learn, however, here we have opened a little place, we have met great people that provide us a lot of support and friendship.

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I’m from everywhere and nowhere perhaps, but my heart knows where it belongs. I’m very proud of my ethnic mix and my accent brazilian-venezuelan-Colombian- and now also Spanish (we must adapt HA!) The truth should be told, in this little body dominates the Venezuelan-Colombian lots, haha and with honor!

I must say it hasn’t been easy. My life has been mostly like a roller coaster with lots of ups and downs, moving from place to place as immigrant. Not always got things as planned, I’ve had to adapt and keep going. Being apart from my family when I was younger staying in Venezuela when they left and then apart from my hubby for 2 years have been the hardest moments of my life. But I do believe that God doesn’t send you challenges you can’t overcome. And here I am with lots of plans and dreams and goals to accomplish. Many times I felt lonely and helpless but thank God I’m so stubborn hahaha.

I know this has been a long post but I wanted to share my ethnic origins for so long! I had done it in Spanish a while ago but lots have happened ever since, so I thought it would be nice to share this now but in English!

I’ll tell you more about my life as an immigrant in another post with more details about our goods and bads in each place we’ve been.

What do you think? Was this a real mix?? Haha, I would love to know your thoughts in comments!

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My name is Camila Rojas but everyone call me Cami. I'm a mommy, blogger, baker, do it yourselfer, crafter and graphic designer. Owner and founder of The Crafting Nook {formerly TitiCrafty} and TCN Design Studio: web design for bloggers. Join me on my crazy adventures!

12 Comments at About Origins and Nostalgia

  1. Camila

    Dear Cami,
    thanks so much for sharing your story, a bit sad but full of hope. Family is the most important thing, ever. I hope your desires will come true and I strongly believe that God never closes a door without opening a bigger and better one, even if our eyes sometimes can’t see it properly. Big hugs and you’ll be in my tonight prayers!

    1. Camila

      Hi Chiara,

      Yeah it has its sad parts but I see it as things to get better at and get stronger. I hope we can settle and have our peace of mind. I’m absolutely sure that God know what He’s doing and that I’ll come out stronger from all my journey! Thank you so much for keeping us in your prays, so much appreciated!!! Also thank you for taking the time to read my story and leaving me your love!

      Hugs and XOXO

  2. Camila

    “Caras Vemos, Corazones No Sabemos”. That means that by looking at you we cannot figure out your feelings and sentiment as an inmigrant. We all have our own history. Im so glad your family is together now, and that you can figure out a way for keeping it together. Even that I dont know you personally, but we have worked together on my blog, I know the sincerity and the love that you have for all the countries that have had open the doors for you. Mucha suerte brazilena, espanola, venezolana, colombiana. And remenber, “Home is were the heart is”. Un abrazo.

    1. Camila

      Thank you so much Fabi. Your words means a lot to me! I do love all the countries I’ve been to. Specially Venezuela that gave me the bets years of my life. I truly hope I can go back some day! And yes definitely home is where my heart is, and gladly we are all together so I can feel home!
      XOXO

  3. Camila

    Wow Cami, what an incredible life journey you have taken. You certainly are showing your daughter the strength of a women! I truly believe that things happen for a reason and I know things will be ok for you and your family!

    1. Camila

      Thank you so much girly… I do believe that too. Probably we all have to learn something from this and get stronger. We all have a mission in this life, right?
      XOXO love ya lots!

  4. Camila

    Hi Camilla, reading your story is so touching. Yes, you are from everywhere and nowhere and it doesn’t always make things easy, but that’s what makes you special.
    I’m happy that you are all together, your husband, your daughter and you. I hope things will work out the way you want. Thanks for sharing your story with us in English.
    O Brazil é um pais maravilhoso com muita diversidade! Noa é uma surpresa que você gosta esse pais com todo o coração. Cuidado de você e da família de você.

    Arlette

    1. Camila

      THANK YOU so much Arlette. I never thought you could speak Portuguese! How cool. I barely write but I do speak fluently. We should definitely do a hangout sometime and speak some Portuguese. Love that language as much as I love English. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story and your good wishes, it’s all appreciated!!!

      Hugs and kisses!!!

  5. Camila

    Thank you so much for sharing your story Cami! It is lovely to get to know even more about you after working with you and partnering with the Link Parties :) I have to say that I can somewhat relate after being born in Canada, and then living in the United States (and moving several times there) and now being back in Canada (with endless VISA issues in the middle of it all). In the midst of moving, I have also visited 14 countries some where in there too :) Thanks again for sharing and opening up about what makes you you :) Hugs, Lisa

    1. Camila

      WOW you have had quite a journey too!… Glad to know I’m not alone! being immigrant is not easy and not sure if it ever get easy actually. I’m kind of used to but if I could, if the situation were different, I would definitely go back to Venezuela. My second option would be Spain since I felt it as a great place to raise a child. But as my friend Angela pointed out, things happen for a reason, right and probably we are here for a reason!
      Thank you so much for stopping by and read my story!!! XOXO

  6. Camila

    What an awesome story! You have lived in so many places that many of us only dream of visiting some day. I’m glad that you and your hubby finally got to be together and I wish you luck on getting the Visa so you can plant your feet and raise your daughter.

    1. Camila

      Thank you Jennifer. Yeah I’ve had the chance to travel a lot thanks to my dad. Getting to know new cultures and lifestyles is so awesome. The thing is that one thing is as tourist and another completely different is as immigrants. Being in both sides, I can say that even though I don’t regret anything It’s definitely better as tourist LOL. I wish I could just stay in my country but sadly that is not possible right now as things are really bad there.

      Thank you so much for taking the time to visit and read my story. That makes me really happy!
      XOXO lots!

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